The past few weeks have been extremely eye opening for me. I've been a whirlwind of emotions. It gets hard not being able to talk and communicate with someone for weeks and months and weeks. Doubt and fear start to creep in as other people all delude your knowledge and feelings with their own "two cents" how cheap. Basics are where it's at. I'm grateful for my best friend who is an incredible support system to me. I am grateful for my cousins, living with them is the most lovely little experience. I love them each so much. I love how much fun we have together and how much we genuinely love and support each other. We have had so much fun the past few weeks meeting new people and new friends. I miss my cousin Sara so much. I think often about a special boy who was a big part of my life for the past few years and hope with all my heart he is happy and is doing so well. That would make me so happy. I laid in the light sprinkling rain this afternoon and it was so relaxing. It felt absolutely refreshing. I spent hours in my car with Aj releasing all my weird confused feelings to make sense of them all. And I did. I have a new focus. Me. Living, enjoying, learning, experiencing, growing. Everyone needs to be broken down at some point.. how else are you suppose to rebuild and better yourself? I do feel humbled. I know that I cannot achieve happiness and a sense of calm and contentment again without my heavenly father and the guidance of the holy ghost. "Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them."
Au Revoir!
